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Here i am with you
spending my time with yOu today was the best tyme ive
had wif anione.
Here we are on our way back and knowing det our time will be up
soon for the day.
Knowing thAt we gotta end our day with goodbyes.
How i wish i just got the money to really just go to your house
asking your hand in marriage, and den we shall not have to end
our days with goodbyes..
U know baby, goodbyes hurt me even when i knoe its only goodbye
for the day..
I hate having to miiss you..
I hate having to send u home. I just wanna spend the entire day
everyday with u. Teasing u.. Loving u.. Seeing u just make me
realse how much u and this world mean to me.. Baby u have
really change my life around. You are god sEnt baby.. I love u..
I really d0.. I mean wadeva i said about lovin u. And yes i wanna
spent my life loving and livin wif u baby. I love u sharifah aishah mustika..

-Edd-

kini baru ku sedar. Thank you Allah. All Praises To You

di sinar mentari hari ini
aku kagum melihat kuasa illahi
sungguh bersyukur keatas nya kerna
sehingga hari ini,
masih lagi aku bernyawa
walaopun sudah berulang kali
aku mencoba untuk mengakihri hidup ku
maseh lagi aku bernyawa di dunia ini.

ini menunjukkan kuasa illahi yang hanya kini
aku dapat melihat dan merasa
benar juga kata 'hidup mati di tangan Allah S.W.T'
walau dengan macam mana cara kita cuba untuk mengakhiri
hidup kita, tanpa izin nya kita akan gagal.

kini ku sedar kenapa Allah masih mahu aku di dunia ini
dia (Allah s.w.t) ingin menyedarkan aku pada kuasa nya,
bertaubat dan bersujud kepada nya.

ya Allah, aku sedar akan kesilapan ku dan dosa dosa ku
selama 20 tahun hidup ku di dunia.
banyak perkara yang aku menyesal buat tapi kini, nasi telah pon menjadi bubor,
tiada ape lagi yang boleh aku perbuat kecuali berdoa agar kau dapat ampunkan dosadosa ku, dan kini engkau berikanla aku kekuatan, ketabahan dan keimanan untuk kembali pulang ke jalan yg benar menuju ke arah syurga mu Ya Allah.
sesungguhnya engkau la yang Maha Pengampun, Maha Penyayang, dan yang Maha Pemahami.

Honesty.. WHY?

here i am trying to be honest.
trying to tell you the truth
and there you are saying im treating u as a rebound
saying you will consider

wads wrong wif being honest..?
ape ke seseorang yang pernah membuat salah
pernah membuat kelakuan dosa yang besar akan sentiasa di khianati oleh manusia2 lain?
selagi kita bernama manusia, kita tidak akan lepas dari membuat dosa dan salah..
aper aku seorang je manusia kat dlm dunia nie yg paling terkutok?
aper aku nie binatang yg dicaci.. yang dihina.. even binatang tk ada org kutok atao hina
seperti maner yg aku telah dicaci.. seperti maner yg aku telah dikutok!


people say honesty is the best policy..
i agree but why issit that when people are being honest, they get fucked up..?
pardon me for the language. but im just letting off my the steam of disappointment and anger.

Why issit that when sumone wanna change for the better, people look dwn on hym/her..
why issit that people look dwn on people who have made a mistake and acknowledged it and wanted
to change and atone for their sin?
why issit that when people are being honest, dey get looked down upon?
why issit that when people learned about the truth, they alwaes wanna leave?
why issit that people cant accept the fact that people will change.
why issit that people cant accept changes from a sinner?

answer me please god..
give me the strength..
im too weak now to even step off away from the ledge.
im just too weak. GOD HELP ME PLEASE.. if u think that i should leave, make me fall forward.
if not make me fall backward. god help me..


Ya ALLAH, aku sedar aku bnyk buat dosa, ampunkanlah dosa ku dan terima lah taubat ku ya allah..
amin.

you!

MUSTIKA..

YOU! bring me back the true meaning of my life
YOU! gave me back my happiness
YOU! show me what true love is all about
YOU! tought me how to love
YOU! showed me the way to a palace filled with love
YOU! ARE THE ONE AND ONLY I WILL LOVE..


one year and a half having to discretely loving u..
now, your mine.. all mine and only mine..

I LOVE U BABY..

Randomizin'

World filled with oppurtunity all around the street corners
Turn. But you realised you're being cornered
Frozen. You dont know what you're gonna do except
to surrender to fate.

-Edd-

I realise that life is like a puzzle
Its something that always get u entangled
And when you're entangled,
You always get strangled
And when you're strangled,
You always end up being stress
And thats just fate.

-Edd-

Wahai kasihku, dengarkanlah rintihan ku
Dari hati yang murni
Kata-kata ku bukannya mimpi
Tetapi kenyataan di siang hari.

-Edd-

Terbentang luas dimuka bumi
Ku tahu ini bukannya mimpi
Mahupun yang ngeri
Ataupun yang hepi

Setiap kata kata yang kau lafazkan
Membuat ku tidak akan putus asa
Namun ada saja godaan
Semuanya ku tahu hanyadari Tuhan

Aku disini umpama bunga
Yang menantikan sang lebah
Mahupun ia membisa
Ia tetap mendatangkan bahagia

Disini ingin akiu katakan
Dirimu tidak boleh disamakan
Hanya kerana engkau yang ku suka
Dan hanya keran engkau yang ku cinta

-Edd-