Honesty.. WHY?

here i am trying to be honest.
trying to tell you the truth
and there you are saying im treating u as a rebound
saying you will consider

wads wrong wif being honest..?
ape ke seseorang yang pernah membuat salah
pernah membuat kelakuan dosa yang besar akan sentiasa di khianati oleh manusia2 lain?
selagi kita bernama manusia, kita tidak akan lepas dari membuat dosa dan salah..
aper aku seorang je manusia kat dlm dunia nie yg paling terkutok?
aper aku nie binatang yg dicaci.. yang dihina.. even binatang tk ada org kutok atao hina
seperti maner yg aku telah dicaci.. seperti maner yg aku telah dikutok!


people say honesty is the best policy..
i agree but why issit that when people are being honest, they get fucked up..?
pardon me for the language. but im just letting off my the steam of disappointment and anger.

Why issit that when sumone wanna change for the better, people look dwn on hym/her..
why issit that people look dwn on people who have made a mistake and acknowledged it and wanted
to change and atone for their sin?
why issit that when people are being honest, dey get looked down upon?
why issit that when people learned about the truth, they alwaes wanna leave?
why issit that people cant accept the fact that people will change.
why issit that people cant accept changes from a sinner?

answer me please god..
give me the strength..
im too weak now to even step off away from the ledge.
im just too weak. GOD HELP ME PLEASE.. if u think that i should leave, make me fall forward.
if not make me fall backward. god help me..


Ya ALLAH, aku sedar aku bnyk buat dosa, ampunkanlah dosa ku dan terima lah taubat ku ya allah..
amin.