i love u darling

lets just say u are not the person ive known.
ur not the loving, the maje the happy person that ive known
ur not u.
ur change makes me wonder if deres anyone else in ur life
it makes me wonder if u still love me as much as before,
or was it all my fault.

wad wrong have i ever done to u?
wads my mistake to u

haish.. please bby.. i love u.. u know u are the angels of my heart..
but i dunwan this u.. i want the old u.. i want the loving,manje n happy u!


ya allah.. kao berikanla ketenangan kepada dia. kao selamatkan la dia dari ape jua masalah
yg dia harus tempuhi. ya allah kau berikan la dia kekuatan dan semangat untuk melawan hasutan hasutan syaitan dan untuk menempuhi dugaan mu ini ya allah. hanya kepada mu aku memohon dan meminta. Amin.

Im sorry babylove for breaking my vow to u.. Im sorie... ;( but i did it
bekors i wanted to see if deres aniting more in me det hurts more
den my past which is now baq haunting me.. I love u bbygerl.. I do..

Im sorry to all if i dun make it to tomorrow.. Know that i will always love all of u..
Espicially my family n u mustika hatiku.. Im sorry for all that ive done.
Im sorie i have to leave this way. I really love all of u.! I really do.
But my past is haunting me! N i fuckin dul like it.! Im sorie dearest
i love u sooo much..!!

Sungguhbaku hornat dgn kau sebagi org yg lebih dewasa.
Tapi apakah maksod kata2 kau itu?!
Kalao kau tk suker, berterus terang di hadapan muka ku ini!
Tk usah lah kao bertopeng atao pun bersimpan sekian lama
dan lalu menghemboskan sekaligus bagaikan Tsunami yang melanda!
Tapi hingga kini aku masih lagi tidak paham dgn maksud kata kata
mu ini. Semuanya bagaikan dihiasi dgn racun yg membunuhku
perlahan demi perlahan!
Aku sedar atAs kedudukkan ku. Aku sedar aku tk layak utk digelar
suami untuk sidiA. Aku sedar aku ni bodoh. Hodoh. Bodoh dlm
pelajaran. Hodoh didlm segi agama. Aku ngerti semua ini.
Tpi Aku tk ngerti kenapa kao menghina aku hingga sebegini.
Ya Allah berikanlah aku petunjuk dan kekuatan utk menempuhi
segalanya. Amin.

Maafkan aku jika kata kata ku ini tidak beralas.

Its been a long tyme since i last updated on this blog.
Sorry to my followers ( if dere is any ) haha..
Its just that ive been busy with whAt life has offered me.
Life has offered me with alort of tortures. Both mental and physical.
Love life being tortured. Family life with misunderstandings.
Friends who misunderstand me. People whose trying to bring me down.
Financially, emotionally, physically and mentally im being disrupted.
God help me please: help me go thru life as painfull as possible.
Please give me the strength to go thru life challenges.
Help me discover to wad you ( Allah s.w.t) has in store for me.
Apart from presenting me with a beautiful lovely family,
and my beautiful lovely lady of my life,
pleasw god grAnt me my wishes. Thanks And praises only to
Allah The Most Graceful. The Most Merciful.

Pengorbanan cinta kita

I miss u alort baby..
Y do i feel like we are drifting apart syg?
I dun want us to drift apart. I love u.
I miss u. Y are we tortured for our love?
Y issit det out love is being test this way.?
Yare we presented wif mental torture for our love?
No doubt of the saying, absence makes the heart grow fonder.
But too long a absence makes us drift apart.
No doubt my love for u is strong
but nevertheless this absence makes me more paranoid.
I dun wanna leave u neither do i want u to leave me.
People can ssay wadever dey want,
dey can put a barrier to aniting but
not my love for u.
I love u alort syg.
I miss u.