im back

i guess im back here blogging after soo long.. and soo many shits happening.. haish.. how i fucking hate my life now.


ferstly.. i just got baq hm.. when to iftar wif familie and when to angsana shopping. den go mkn den whole familie go lepak at ili hz watching wujud4, pusaka, kecoh btol and cinta fitri =.= haha..
initialy wanted to buy a baju kurung for raye. same kolor as sayang's.. but suddenly b4 i got out i went to fb and my heart just shatters into pieces.. issit too much for me to ask for us to be back together like how we use to? for u to stop contacting other guys(damn it hurts):(? to times when we were happy wif each other. being sttrong against all odd.. not contacting to anyone apart from each other..
u keep saying that i dont miss u.. but do u know facts that u r the topic of evry conversation i start wif my familie. i keep telling them how much i friggin miss u.. n how much i love you. and wad are our babies name. and plenty more. families are starting to see the cheer on my face back since u and i got together.. and they thankful much to u. kors u brought back the smile on my face.. they are happy for us.. alwaes praying for us. alwaes asking me abt u and when are u coming dwn to meet them and slack and go mkn watch movie. haish. now it hurts me when they asked me.. not bekors that u dun love me animore.. but bekors that we are drifting apart and we arent being strong enuf to stay on. i dun use i. i use us. both of us arent perfect..we have had managed to stay strong before but i dun understand y now we cant, maeb like u said it could be bekors we cant communicate much bekors my line has been cut off due to outstanding bill due to autoroam which i use to msg u. (side track abit, damn autoroam sms is 61 cents sia,.. mahal or wad.. asek cekik duet org jek tau nie singtel.. ok now go baq to the topic,) my mesia prep8 asek low jek pasal satu msg to spore is rm0.50. and my dad keep bringing the lappie to werk. damn.. things are beyond our control. we gotta be strong. no doubt both of us are trying our hard. adnd maeb in my eyes, those guyfriends of urs are taking this advantage to try n break us apart. thats how i feel.. ilove u too much.. i dun wanna let u go. neither do i want u to go. plz syg. iloveyou.. i miss u. and i will always will..

love,
your peterPan